So I've written about crushes and intrigues and love losses many many times - if anyone is interested just revisit most of my summer posts [or any of my posts really. Love is my grand motivator].
That said. I have a crush... it's something I hate bringing up in blog form or print unless it's something. It's definitely something. I didn't sleep much last night, minus the stupid neighbor's dog howling at her absence... because I'm doing the thing I do when I really really truly like someone. It's embarrassing and the opposite of poetic. Or maybe the epitome of poetic. I day dream about them, as they are not. As I want them to be, as we are together. Last night's insomniac visions were perfect, as life isn't.
So this time... I'm keeping my crush to myself, as much as I can. There is a reason one of my coworkers calls me Chismosa which basically means I can't keep my blipping mouth shut. About anything. Which isn't actually true.... I'm a vault and a volcano equally. She was lucky enough to meet me in a gregarious phase.
That's it. Almost a hidden place.... but I've not shared with anyone the incredible power of this crush. Overwhelming, I could be wrong about this one. But this feeling is like no other... it's something I want to hold in my hands and cherish, protecting it from everyone else.
That said. I have a crush... it's something I hate bringing up in blog form or print unless it's something. It's definitely something. I didn't sleep much last night, minus the stupid neighbor's dog howling at her absence... because I'm doing the thing I do when I really really truly like someone. It's embarrassing and the opposite of poetic. Or maybe the epitome of poetic. I day dream about them, as they are not. As I want them to be, as we are together. Last night's insomniac visions were perfect, as life isn't.
So this time... I'm keeping my crush to myself, as much as I can. There is a reason one of my coworkers calls me Chismosa which basically means I can't keep my blipping mouth shut. About anything. Which isn't actually true.... I'm a vault and a volcano equally. She was lucky enough to meet me in a gregarious phase.
That's it. Almost a hidden place.... but I've not shared with anyone the incredible power of this crush. Overwhelming, I could be wrong about this one. But this feeling is like no other... it's something I want to hold in my hands and cherish, protecting it from everyone else.
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