How do you set your metaphysical intentions, like one does in Yoga or other type of transcendental meditation? How do you accept and embrace the defining terms of your life? Writer, Lover, Healer, Teacher.
Rising above oneself to abstract heights seems so beyond what I believe I'm able, when actually what I probably mean is that it's beyond what I want. Desire is earth bound, selfish. I even want Transcendence. Returning always to him, a man I cannot possess. I want to feel the intoxicating presence of being flesh bound in his gaze. I want to be wanted while simultaneously reveling in the feeling that I'm unattainable. I want to writhe in a passion unrequited. Touching yourself in wet and dark places knowing He controls your mind. With a mere flick of a finger, the bat of an eye, a salty tongue, breath in the ear...I want, I want, I want.
My desires are so of the Earth. Always at war with my Mind.
The Cure - Halo
*How does that funny movie quote go? "See? You read a couple of Harlequin romance novels and they haunt you for life"....