Sunday, November 13, 2011

Salt Decadence

In this age of disbelief, cynicism and insincerity I wonder if anyone truly believes in soul mates anymore.  I don't really know the answer to this question [though I have my suspicions] but I'm curious.  This last weekend I met, if not my soul mate, than at the very least a most kindred spirit.  This encounter either fundamentally changed me or reinforced a forgotten belief in connection's intoxicating power.

Most of my early life I was a bit of a selfish, calculating person with a sort of manipulative zeal.  Terrible to admit and even though good reasons may abound for that time in my life, it's still true.  It was losing a lover that shook my core and thus losing all my beliefs at the same time that changed everything.  You can only truly feel your own failings when you see them mirrored in the eyes of someone you love who is lost.  Unforgettable.  It is humility and an intense desire for growth that gives a new perspective - the one of painfully slow progress.

Blonde Redhead I will always thank you for being the catalyst that gave me the meeting with a most timely kindred amazingly lovely spirit.  For many practical reasons we will not see each other again as he runs in his direction and I run in mine, with perfect understanding.   But after so much solitude, it was beyond lovely to see myself in the eyes of someone so familiar.   Seen as beautiful, kind and best of all [after so many years in the desert] myself.  His memory will fade as he and I are absorbed into our respective lives but that feeling is eternal.  And best of all?  Always mine.


Anonymous said...

Indie Pop meets David Lean's 1945 film Brief Encounter?

(a wonderful film if you haven't seen it, btw)

Genevieve said...

Haha yes, I guess it was a bit cinematic.

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