I Hate Everything

I hate everything.  I hate today.  I hate those happy people with their stupid trees and cookies.  I hate my choice to leave Babylon Tower.  I hate the stupid day I just had.  I hate the fact that I can't leave today behind.  I hate that Che Guevara has taken up residence in my stupid uterus and is plotting Uterine Guerilla Warfare and I had to pretend while at work that I was a happy person while stupid bloody uterine massacre made me a cranky unhappy goblin.  I hate that I brought a coworker to my weird teeny home and my dog Mavis got so excited she peed on my bed.  TWICE.  I hate that my headphones don't work.  I hate that I'm listening to an amazing mix made 10 years ago that isn't digital [because it's a mixed tape] and I can't upload it to share.  I hate that I haven't done laundry in three months and have shit to wear tomorrow and have to get creative with what the fuck I have left.  I hate that I have crushes on some people I work with when I know better.

I REALLY HATE THAT I HAVE NO FUCKING HEADPHONES.

But holy mother of fuck I love Joy Division. This amazing cover of Love Will Tear Us Apart [incidentally one of my ultimate favorite songs] by Squarepusher is currently playing as I type and it's making the madness of today ease and throb. Throb, throb, thrummm.....

No Ordinary Atmosphere

This track Ordinary Life by Signal & Report is thumptastically [yes that's a word] My Heart.  The way he heartbreakingly puts himself out there and pleads "Just turn away" makes me think of Ian Curtis' brutality when he rips through Atmosphere. 

At the two minute mark this gorgeous music CRASHES into you... beating heart,  this is everything.   I don't know much about this vocalist [I'm confused as to whether it's Chris Hall or Noah Miller that's singing on this track] but that really doesn't matter.  I'm in love with this song too much to bother over silly details like origins. I do; however, think it's fantastic that both of their releases No New Rome to Burn and Marshlands were recorded at Sacred Heart Studios in Duluth, Minnesota, located inside a desanctified cathedral*.  So far I really like the bass and guitar on tracks The Bell Room, Current, and Over the Wire too.

Winning you is too much work
But wanting you is so much worse
God knows I've tried to swallow my pride
Watching you, your hands, your face
Makes my anger melt away
And you know that just makes me lonely
- Just turn away

I don't know you, I think that you know me
There's a presence behind your eyes
I hate the way you got a hold on me
You make me forget ordinary life
And turn away

I need someone to know me now
Someone to help me, show me how
To begin to live in ordinary sin
You holy angel
Just turn away
You holy angel

All I've known is my own self
I've never dealt with someone else
And I'm scared of wanting to drown in you
My insides out and out of place
I give myself up to your grace
Let's take a risk, let's say we do this
And turn away

You turn away
Just turn away

*You can read more about Signal & Report at Fear of a Blank Planet.  This blurb is really nice:  "Signal & Report make music for the 3 a.m. hour, full of mystery, doubt, fear and cold sweat...Amongst all of it is a deep and resonant voice communicating a range of anxiety, terror and empathy with equal parts croak and croon."

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Losing It

One billion expletives are swarming wasp-like in my head.  My friend just got tickets to this because he lives in a cool city where cool stuff happens and if any of you are lucky enough to live in a city where they're playing you would be idiots not to go.  IDIOTS.  Remember when I mentioned this last May?

Peter Hook and The Light play Joy Division - She's Lost Control


Unknown Pleasures Tour

Dec. 1: 9:30 Club, Washington, D.C.
Dec. 2: Voyeur, Philadelphia, PA
Dec. 3: Webster Hall, New York, NY
Dec. 4: Royale Nightclub, Boston, MA
Dec. 6: Double Door, Chicago, IL
Dec. 7: Showbox at the Market, Seattle, WA
Dec. 9: Doug Fir, Portland, OR
Dec. 10: Mezzanine, San Francisco, CA
Dec. 11: Music Box at Henry Fonda Theater, Los Angeles, CA

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Anniversary

30 years ago today Ian Curtis died. Peter Hook will be playing Unknown Pleasures in its entirety tonight at FAC251.

I wish I had a private jet.