Friday, December 27, 2024

2024: A Playlist Poem

No fanfare... just me posting a poignant poem based solely on song lyrics from my 2024 playlist. Imagine a slightly emo Dadaist approach to an end of year shenans and then you've got it. It's intense, dramatic, bleak and dripping with romance. Would you expect anything less from me? 


When you wear the same face every day, worried you might have a small hole in your soul.

We’ll be fine, just take your time whichever way you go. 

Another goodbye now, on and on. Dream Keeper, my dream keeper. 

If we are infinite and there’s no end, I hope you live. 

Doing what you say like a hund, hund, hund. Ich weiss, Ich weiss, Ich weiss! Das ist alles für mich. 

You push it hard, I pull away, I’m feeling hotter than fire. I guess no one ever made me feel that much higher. 

Oh. It’s our history. Everyone wants you to be something you’ll never be. 

I can’t have it all and I wouldn’t want to. 

This is gonna be a weird record.

How else can it be proven to you that I’m devout? I spill right out. 

I wonder how a gap can feel this much. How a gap can feel that something this big. How it multiples in my veins and my blood and how it triggers itself in my thoughts. I’d like to be your beautiful hell. 

When the tides turn elsewhere, I shall give myself to the moment somewhere. I am ever crashing, just waiting for you to pull me out. 

I’m sanctified in my lover’s eyes. No way around it, no way to fight. A pull too strong. Don’t try to forfeit, the way is through. If you deny death, you deny life. Let it suffer, let it shine. What must be severed, left behind?

I have my sentence now at last I know just how you felt. I dig my fingers in expecting more than just the skin. 

I can’t wait to consecrate this wondrous mess. Words unforgotten until we sing again. Start at the bottom and then we descend.  

She tries to understand a never never land.

Scantily clad woman. Scantily clad man.

Wanna kiss you all over, wanna eat you up! 

I lost my way in the fire. I am a moth to the flame. Dancing too close to desire. To feel again.

Could this be a life without love, without loss? When you met me, buried deep in my heart… Heavy metal.

Don’t ever put me on the moon again. Don’t ever see the moon again.

Me repugna esta sociedad.

While you are still alive, do not let your soul fade away. 

I’m gonna win this game. 

When the rage in me subsides, in this white wave I am sinking. In this silence. In this white wave, in this silence, I believe.

Forever is just a waste of time. You live, you work, you die.

You never stop, you never stop.

You broke my heart, it came in two. It was an accident, I didn’t mean it.

I’ve tried to fight this but you are my weakness. Pull back your eyelids, I’m lost in your iris.

It fills my wombs with a poisoned wine 

It blinds my eyes with a veil of dark

It feeds my heart with a filthy blood

It grows inside me like the devil’s son

It burns inside me like a blazing soul

It sucks my life out of every bone

It blurs the truth with insane lies

It can’t be fought, ‘cause it keeps me alive

This anger in my veins makes me suffocate.

Are you alright?

I’ve got no feelings anymore. The evenings slide from being bored. No gleaming past or future formed. I run solo. I run to what I know. 

It all started with a shiver. Just a little touch. 

What if it’s not meant for me, love?

A thousand people I could be for you and you hate the fucking lot.

Because you know my ways now. There’s a phoenix fire burning in my house and it’s melting me down. 

I think my kink is when you tell me that you think I’m pretty. 

Bring your shadow into the light. Meet my lover on an astral plane.

You wrote my favorite song, now I’m fucked up and carrying on. And it hits me, I don’t want anyone else touching you like I do.

Stop, go, fast, slow. Who can deny this perfect symmetry?

If you walk through the flames, do you catch fire? And too much has already been said. 

I get so frightened and no one else seems frightened. Only me.

One ticket out of your heavy gaze, I want one ticket off of your carousel. 

So no thanks, I’m politely declining.

And a lust for life keeps me alive. 

This isn’t a party, it’s a crime scene.

I must have died a thousand times.

I don’t like the way you run your mouth, no more letting secrets out. 

You've got secrets too. 

Very moody, yeah, yeah, yeah! Very up, down and all around baby. 


You can bite the sound apple here: CTST 2024 Love Letter Playlist 


TRACK LIST: 

The Clean - In the Dreamlife U Need a Rubber Soul

La Luz - Strange World

The Veldt - The Everlasting Gobstopper

BLACKSHAPE - Itiiitiatiihylihyl

Schnallo - Ich Weiss

Lana Del Rey - West Coast

Gliss - 21st Century

Miya Folick & Skinny Atlas - Can't Have It All

The Saxophones - Desert Flower

Gigi Perez - Please Be Rude 

Adna - Beautiful Hell

SRSQ - Ever Crashing

Chelsea Wolfe - Tunnel Lights

The Last Dinner Party - Nothing Matters

Devendra Banhart - Won't You Come Over

Beach House - Once Twice Melody

Haute & Freddy - Scantily Clad

Vicious Pink Phenomena - Take Me Now

deary - The Moth

Cindy Lee - Heavy Metal

Tim Presley - Morris

Jonathan Hulten - Afterlife

Kontravoid - Losing Game (ft Chelsey Crowley)

Delirium - Silence (ft Sarah McLachlan)

The Mad Walls - Television

TR/ST - Dark Day

Virgin Prunes - Baby Turns Blue

Aurat - (Language Unknown) 

Sidewalks and Skeletons - Slip Away

Pastel Ghost - Iris

Minuit Machine - Black Is My Anger

Modern Heaven - Midnight Cowboy

TR/ST - Run (ft Cecile Believe)

Fever Ray - Shiver

Wolf Alice - Don't Delete the Kisses

Lola Young - Messy

Warpaint - Melting

Blondshell - Kiss City

Say She Say - Astral Plane

Del Water Gap - Ode to a Conversation Struck in Your Throat

Jessie Ware - What's Your Pleasure?

SDH Semiotics Department of Heteronyms - Lovers Wonder

Strawberry Switchblade - Trees and Flowers 

Bleachers - Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call

Bea & Her Business - Safety Net

Lana Del Rey - Lust For Life

Male Tears - This Party Ends in Tears

The Chameleons - Less Than Human

Geneva Jacuzzi - Keep It Secret 

Röyksopp - What Else Is There? 

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Fleez


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